Whalefall

It ain't Fuchs

Assigning the right grief to something, not simply what we feel is the "right amount" can be just as important.

The right grief is the grieving of a death. Mourning a person I can only miss because they are simply no longer there. A persona, a thing, an exterior, that once housed a caring creature, got so frightened that it fully consumed it's host...

You can't warn others of such a puppet when you're it's only prey either, you simply avoid it's feeble claws now. "It's a damn shame that they did it to themselves" you think... But nothing's confusing anymore, because the one you loved is dead, and a thing goes out and does it's job and feeds it's dogs. Ephemera of the internal, eternal being.

Today I let my heart out with something I'm really proud of, an attempt to capture and celebrate the genuine. It crystallized beautifully, selfishly, and brings me to tears the more I watch it repeat. A hot prick to my blood, not writhing away from the needle, proof that I'm all there...

It's a damn shame...